Life flows on...

Thoughts meander like a restless wind inside a letterbox... no. Fixing a hole where the rain gets in... no. We were talking about the space between us all and the people who hide themselves behind a wall of illusion... yes.

Today seems to be a day where a lot of things can happen. I found out in the morning that I got a second interview for a fantastic internship opportunity, and since then I have spent the day relaxing. I have tried to take the day for some self-reflection and as usual it takes me back to The Beatles. I realized today that I have been somewhat hiding behind a wall of illusion, as George sings about in Within You Without You from 'Sgt Pepper's Lonely Hearts Club Band.' I have been hiding behind a wall of my own misgivings, my own past transgressions and my own lies; I have to move on. I spent the week constantly thinking back to getting a ticket and the decisions that led to that and kicking myself for it, but the truth is I cannot do anything to change the past. No matter how much I want to change what happened, I cannot and I need to be living in the now, not in the past. I need to look toward my future and live in the moment, trying my best to absorb every second of life.

I reflected with my roommate today that my time in Bloomington is coming to a close and with it a chapter of my life, but that does not mean all is lost; with one page turning another is revealed. I hope for the future.

I realized that I should probably take a step back- as I did today- more often, and try my best to get out from behind whatever thoughts and feelings are holding me back. To step away from my own realities for at least a few minutes every day and think of things from outside myself. I think we can all benefit from doing that, from taking life into perspective. Go outside, see the grass, see the trees, see the sun shining; and if the sun is obscured remember that it is always there beyond the clouds waiting to make the Earth's day brighter.

"With our love-we could save the world-if they only knew.
Try to realize it's all within yourself
No-one else can make you change
And to see you're really only very small,
And life flows on within you and without you"